Growing up, I was constantly told that I was not thin enough, I was not smart enough, and not popular enough. I always looked at the other girls and envied them. I never knew what it was like to just be me. It always seemed that they had everything. I was so uncomfortable about being me that I never spoke in a group setting and I never expressed my opinions. I was so uncomfortable that I didn’t think being me was ok. It was especially hard after I was divorced. For years I carried so much shame being a single mom that I never told people unless I had to. I was so ashamed of myself that I became even more uncomfortable of being me.
It is after a lot of soul searching that I realized that I am just another ordinary person on this planet and we might all seem to have perfect life on the outside, but we all have issues. It is totally ok to be me and I should embrace who I am. It is more important to embrace each moment and have fun. There is no point to dwell about my wounds. And my life turned out to be ok. And I learned, just be me and there is no point to try to be anyone else.
Just be you,
Shih-Ying